My Body Will Catch Up

It's been over a month since I've written. The holidays were fun, filled with goodies, and generally tempting. In my new year's resolution I didn't want to change anything about what I'd committed to in 2010 - 10 a day, while not always followed to the "t", is still my goal. I also still want to run a 10-minute mile. So what needed to change?

I mentioned Marianne Williamson's article in my last blog. After reading that piece in Oprah I lost 5 pounds - just through thinking differently about my relationship with food. I then ordered her book A Course in Weight Loss. Each chapter is a different lesson. Some of the teachings feel a little silly, but I'm trying them (i.e. making an altar to my life). Some of her words though are so right-on, I have re-read certain chapters 3 and 4 times.

I don't know what I weigh today. I'm not as focused on it, to be honest. I feel a huge relief from my crutch on food to relieve my daily and long-term stresses, embarrassments, worries, and angers. Let's be honest - even my joys and accomplishments are tied to food "rewards".

My mindset is healthier today than it was yesterday, and I believe that will change my body. I have a big trip to New York planned for this weekend. It will entail LOTS of walking, and these coming nights and days will be focused on tying up details in preparation of a long weekend. Will the airplane seat be tight on my thighs? Yes, probably. But my mind will be focused, my heart will be light, and I will be living healthfully. My body will catch up in its own time.